Saturday, December 6, 2008
One year ago...
Thank you everyone for your prayers, your support and your honest feedback. It has been a true blessing to come back to the apartment tonight and read all of the notes of encouragement.
I would like to update you on where we stand, but unfortunately there's not much new.
We had another appointment this afternoon (technically considered to still be our first appointment). In that meeting we were shown some new files.
Now we have a difficult decision to make.
Do we go ahead and meet one of these new children? Or do we wait for the other girl?
Thankfully the SDA has given us until tomorrow at noon to decide. We will have an answer for them. We just don't know what it will be yet.
The real challenge of international adoption is avoiding becoming a slave to your circumstances.
It is so easy to do.
We are far away from home...far away from our kids...far away from everything and everyone we hold dear. It is difficult to do even the simplest things without assistance, which gets REALLY old, REALLY fast! :) We can't even read the street signs for heaven's sakes, which means if we go out for a walk we have to make sure we take our cell phone with us in case we get lost (a real possibility).
We don't dare take the subway...because we can't tell what stop we started at and where we need to get off. And we can't hire a cab to take us anywhere because we can't negotiate a price. When buying groceries at the store down the street it's a toss up as to whether we'll come home with what we were looking for...because we can't tell what is in the packages.
I don't want to sound like we're complaining. We're not. We are enjoying our time here and this week has flown by. It's just that all of these things makes daily life difficult. And if you add a week into an already long process, we know by the time we are done we will be incredibly tired, stressed and more than ready to come home.
A week makes a big difference.
But we also know we are not on our own timeline...we are on God's. It may just be that He's trying to remind us of that. Our job is to figure out what all of it means.
What we do know is that we will do whatever it takes to bring our child home. Whoever it is.
That's the problem...the knowing.
If it is the little girl, then by all means we will wait HOWEVER long it takes to bring her home...but is the child God has for us, one of the little faces looking up at us from the files this afternoon?
We don't know.
Only God does.