Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Remember last month when I told you something was stealing my joy? That I was having a hard time dealing with it...but I wasn't ready to talk?
Well, I'm ready now.
I am sick and tired of not being able to find a job.
I know I've complained of this before, but this time I'm serious.
I'm not just sick and tired.
I am REALLY sick and tired.
I am sick of tweaking my resume to each job I'm applying for.
I'm tired of spending hours filling out those online job apps only to wonder if it will only get snarfed up by cyberspace before it reaches someone's inbox.
And everytime I look up the 'help wanteds' on the web I literally get nauseous.
Will there be something in there today that I'm qualified for?
If I apply will they even call me?
What if there's nothing?
There aren't very many jobs available here in Grab-your-lasso-town, Wyoming.
Last Sunday there were exactly 40 jobs in the Help Wanteds.
A few weeks ago there were 18.
I've actually seen it empty a few times. Empty as is nada...
I'm not kidding.
And when there are ads most of them are...
- Employment opportunity for Certified Massage Therapist in established chiropractic clinic. Must be energetic & motivated. Call XXX.XXXX.
- Fulltime Auto Dismantler with automotive experience & driver's license. Rinkers, 203 Baker.
and of course...
- CNA- Are you a CNA interested in working in an energetic fun atmosphere? We have a full or part time day shift position open. Check out out new wages! Excellent pay time off package. xxxxxxx Care Center 503 S. 18th. EOE Drug Free Work Place. $1000 Sign On Bonus.
Since my massages definitely can't be described as therapeutic...the only thing I know about dismantling autos is running them into fence posts...and I couldn't be a CNA to save my life...or anyone else's...you can see my conundrum.
I have applied to every job known to man.
I have applied for jobs I'm qualified for...
ones I'm overqualified for...
ones I'm not even remotely qualified for.
I've applied to be a radio reporter for NPR, an editor for an Alumni magazine, a secretary at a grant center for women's issues, an editor for the University's Foundation magazines, a marketing specialist at the University, a 'Stop Smoking' coordinator at the hospital, a receptionist for an insurance agency, a promotions editor for a local television station, a downtown association CEO...and many, many more.
Now before you tell me to stop complaining - that I'll find something soon, let me ask you this...
Do you know how many interviews I've had in the last five months?
A bit deflating to the ego, don't ya think?
I am a highly qualified, hard-working, quick-thinking, loyal, flexible employee - at least that's what I've been told.
SO WHY AM I NOT GETTING SO MUCH AS A PHONE CALL?!!!
I have no idea. I've thought about calling some of these places to ask, but really...what's that going to do for me? I doubt its my resume, or my qualifications. I think its more a matter of 'who you know.' You know?
So...I'm trying to take a more proactive approach.
Taking matters into my own hands.
Grabbing the bull by the horns. (appropriate since I'm living in the cowboy state)
At first I thought about monetizing this blog. I mean I love to write, so why not turn it into a money-making enterprise.
I redid the header, made a little button, joined Entrecard in hopes of generating more traffic...and started looking at those companies who rate your blog and then pay you to place an ad on it. But the journalist in me got REAL squeamish, real quick.
The reason I write is for me. I don't want a bunch of ads cluttering up my sidebars...plus I feel like I would be taking advantage of my readers.
I started this blog to write about our family...about Maddie...about our life experiences. The people who read it come here to follow our journey or to learn more about how to take the steps to start their own. I can't take advantage of that trust.
Besides, I don't want to make money off my crew - unless it involves sending in a video to Funniest Home Videos.
I thought about starting another blog complete with ads, so people knew what they were getting into when they started reading.
It would be a mommy blog...or an adoption help blog...or something else I know about. Something where my Sunflower Seeds bloggy friends don't feel like they're being assaulted with ads every time they come over to 'visit.'
I actually went so far as to come up with a header, a button and a design for the new blog...and the registered AdoptionDIY.
But I don't know. I mean, I know that I know how to adopt internationally, but do I have enough of an experience to help anyone else?!
I haven't adopted from China...or Guatemala...or Vietnam. I don't know how their system works. I've thought about recruiting some other adoptive parents to help...but something is holding me back. Something undefined.
So for now, it sits empty.
I've thought about starting my own P.R. firm. My cousin, Lisa, did it. I know I could do it. But that same something keeps holding me back.
I think its fear.
So I've been wracking my brain trying to find some alternatives...which brings me back to the title.
Desperate times call for desperate measures. Yesterday's hair-brained idea was doing one of those direct sale/party thingees. I have a friend who sold with this particular company and she says she loved it. The only reason she isn't doing it anymore is because she lives in a tiny, little town and ran out of
I, on the other hand, live in a decent sized small city, my friend says I'd be great at it and yesterday, in my fog induced, job desperate mind, it didn't sound like a half-bad idea. I even called my friend's supervisor last night and asked her to send me the start-up packet so I could take a look at it.
But again...I'm getting squeamish. I don't think its 'me'. Ya know?
So here's where you come in.
I need your help.
Help me figure out what to do.
I could do some freelance writing. I keep saying I'm going to do it...but it takes time to find the jobs, do the interviews and write the articles. And I have to admit...I'm not a speedy writer. Hey! You can't rush brilliance! Remember the whole Christmas Card fiasco?
Yea. It takes me awhile to get a pithy post put together.
The new monetized blog sounds good...but by this time tomorrow I may be chickening out again. And how long does it take to get a good blog going that REALLY brings in money? I mean, after all, these are desperate times. Finances around here are incredibly tight. So tight my budget screams.
I don't have time to sit around waiting for a blog to build momentum.
I had a friend suggest teaching online courses...which sounds good. I liked teaching...but again, I don't know where to begin...and the spring semester is already up and running.
Hmmm....any other ideas?